W texts me at 1230AM. Ive been up with D3 all night again. Havent slept yet. The earlier you can come tomorrow the better. I almost locked her out of my bedroom I cant take it anymore.

Im not going to text her until the morning and I just want to validate and say how that must have been a rough night Ill be there to pick her up as soon as I can.

Its so easy for me to see how much better our lives would be together. But I guess she doesnt see it or just thinks of how it was in the MR before... still think back to the quality of life I had when we were together. How great of a wife she was in many ways. If we could get back to growing together it would be great... but so far off seems like a pipedream.

Thanks all for the advice on our interactions. Hoping to play my cards right consistently moving forward.


H: 33 W:32
M: 5 T: 8
D: 4
BD: 6/2017
MO: 6/2017
House sold: 6/28/18
W wants to build friendship / relationship- 9/18
Paying $ support since 7/18.
Physical Reconnect- 10/18
W Starts- IC / MC - 10/18