She has no idea what she wants UK, imagine your confusion , guilt and multiply it by a million times and she is feeling more than that. There is no clarity in her thoughts, D, S , R dont believe anything. In my sitch WH has been all over the map too, at one time he wanted to D and live together for the rest of our lives. And now he has moved out. You will have better luck finding the pot of gold at the end of a rainbow before you find logic and reason in what they say. Dont believe anything she says until it is followed by an action. - arshi