Hope, Faith & Wonder-ment

[Underdog]

Hi Wonder!

I just want to chime in and say I think you're doing awfully well with all these epiphanies, and try not to be too hard on yourself.

Nothing I can do about how he wants to handle things... wish I could get a handle on how I want to handle things. I am all over the map with that one the past few weeks.

Well, maybe you need to do this in order to figure out what you're really feeling? You and I both know that you're not doing this with your H (or in his presence), so nobody is getting hurt by your edginess.

As far as I can tell he has relegated speaking with me into a window between 6-7 p.m. weekdays. Any other time, I get VM and any time he returns a call, it has been during this time. This is very telling. In the past, this has happened when OW is in the picture and I am being squeezed in when she is not around.

Um, try not to make this assumption, okay? While I know you're operating on past history, I know firsthand that it is sometimes easier for me to give someone my full attention when I can schedule time with them. I know you're busy too, so just imagine how you feel when you look at your palm pilot/daytimer and see days that are chock full of stuff... but wanting to call a friend to chat.

I have to say that your H and you have a similar and easy going friendship. As long as you're taking care of you, and there is nothing pressing you to rock the boat, why not drift awhile longer?

We'll eventually get where we need to go, Wonder. I really believe that. But sometimes we just need to wait for some more puzzle pieces to appear so we have a good idea where that is.

Betsey