I am so sorry she caught a virus. Usually if one gets it, others will soon follow. Hope she feels better and can enjoy the cruise.
Thanks Job. She was feeling so/so yesterday, but much better today and will be swimming with the dolphins. No one else is sick so far, thankfully.
I came today to let out some negative thoughts. I just needed to put them somewhere.
On IG last night, I saw FF's IG story. The pictures were of her and her new boyfriend and FF and his GF at a winery.
I hated seeing it. Not because I long for him. There is just no ex I could look back on and see single like me. Almost every single one of them is deeply committed to the person after me. It actually really messes me up in the head. Why do I not deserve it? Why am I the only one STILL alone? It kicks me in the gut.
The two of them are young and happy and his family loves her. They will get married, have their own kids. Why did I even entertain the thought of this working out between us? I was a desperate fool who should have just told him I am too old for him.
I can't make these mistakes anymore.
But really, what has me all messed up seeing everyone coupled up with the one they left me for. Including my exH. I just feel like I am being punished for something.
