Gordie 21 going with my gut

[Gordie]

Gerda and thank you for the reminder of Hosea which is beautiful on so many levels



DNJ I find it amazing how you are so thoughtful about dang near everything I think we are around the same age maybe you are a little older but I feel you are so much wiser

So yes need to take things slowly as Gerda also said not too vague and letting the guard down also very slowly this is very tricky as I have started to feel what others here have written about that when the walls come down a little those feelings of LBS anger and resentment also well up

I read a slightly tongue in cheek book called f*** feelings which was intentionally provactife not in that feelings are bad but as you remind they are all over the place and not good guides to life

I think there is a difference in the going with my gut title which is rooted in deeper beliefs and convictions than fleeting feelings that if you know what I mean

And yes trying to keep expectstions low still

Re food that one really surprised me so was clearly a blind spot and a reminder of the futility of mind reading and attempting to pre emptively fix what I think is broken



Andrew yes Butterfly and your comments about jealousy re children is another eye opener and have been thinking more about that one where I can see looking back more clearly

I think there has been damage done in her wanting a fatherly love she lacked and I could not provide to her despite my own intuitive efforts to do so but that I did provide to our children

Not sure how to dig out of that hole but not going there now but awareness of the issue is a big first step