We understand what you are going through. You are going to have ups and downs for a while. For now, you are a part of his so called "past" and his "present" means new people, new things, new adventures. He will return to visit his "past" from time to time, but it will be short visits. As we say around here, they expect us to be right where they left us. Coly, you are slowly moving forward. Take all the time you need to swim to the other side of the lake. You've been redecorating and purging some of his stuff. Be patient w/yourself...you are still mourning the loss of your marriage/relationship and there is no time limit on mourning.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
