My last day of in house separation is tomorrow. I am looking forward to closure. My WAW is getting her wish, she filed. I avoided her all day and stayed out of the house with the kids. A wave of emotions. From anger to a sense of betrayal from a women who said she would never leave me 6 years ago. How much as changed. I look back at all opportunities I had to be a better husband to her and failed. This past year of separation has made me grow but this forum has made me stronger. Yes, I have my bad days. I wish I could tell her off and say she is destroying the lives of 4 kids. But I know I need to let go of the hate. I hope she sees one day the pain she caused and lost chances I offered to reconnect. I feel better that I did not give up. I took all the low blows and stayed strong. I survived to see her be the one who filed and all I respond with is love. She won’t even look at me in eyes anymore. I actually feel bad for her. She is still cold to me even though she is getting the divorce she wants. Why? I may never know. I still have hope that she will come out of this MLC, but it may be well after we are divorced. Thanks to all who helped me. Sandi and Steve, especially you. Good night.
