OK here goes first post... pt 2

[bhappy2]

What started it off today was that I went to make some space on the answer phone. There were messages from the day W left. Firstly about taking the car to a garage that morning. It was a lie. I played it back several times listening to her lying.

You know full well that you should just erase those messages, you heard them once and continued to play them back searching for answers to questions that you already have your answer. Erase them NOW, not later, NOW! Stop looking for some secret link that will reconnect you with your W. Your life is worth living right now. Take the time and find what you like. Whatever she is doing is unimportant to you...

I later treated myself to a purchase, although buying it was an ordeal.

Are you complaining about something trivial? What could go wrong with purchasing something? Listen David, its time to stand up and fight for yourself. That does not mean that you have to be nasty in any way it means that whatever reason your W has for leaving does not matter anymore and you will be happy with or without her. You can choose to wallow and curl up in a ball... its your choice...pick one...

I then walked for several miles. The whole time it kept going through my head that before W left she was telling me in bed that we were soul-mates and yet I now know she'd already been planning a D from me. I can't get my head around how cruel that was.

Ok so you need validation that she lied straight up to you, that in her mind at the time you were her soulmate, well guess what? not anymore. She doesnt feel that way right now, that does not mean she cant change her mind, but and this is a big but, you need to do the work. Go GET A LIFE... Geez its been talked about on this site ad nauseam, and the reason is because it works.