I am glad you returned to post an update. It's okay...we all need to step away every now and then. You are always welcome here and you don't have to return to post about him...you can post about how things are going w/you and your daughter. I'm am so happy to read that you and your daughter had a wonderful holiday. That's all that matters...living life and enjoying the time you spend w/your child.
Take care of yourself and don't be a stranger.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
