Thanks LW and UK I am keeping D3 out of home as much as I can but she has ton of questions but I am shielding her to the best possible extent. I have a questions for the vets here, please help. I am not looking for an excuse to begin pursuing, I am done with that chapter but just trying to understand WHs psyche ( V, I hear you saying no reasoning there scrambled eggs for brains lol) When WH started shutting down on me pre BD I confronted him and asked why he was doing that. I said no body with any self respect should stand for this kind of treatment and he was vague with answers. Post BD I got desperate and started pleading. He brought up post BD that my original response was about self respect, that shows how egotistic, self centered and selfish I was and how he has suffered with such a person. He also said after that I started my begging but my first reaction showed my true colors. I know begging didn’t help, neither has my detaching since he is moving out. Could it be that my strength and resilience shows him that I don’t want him and he needs to feel wanted by words and action? I am not changing my current behavior though, I don’t want to tie someone down. I cannot shackle a person who walks out of MR. my mind runs crazy so just some questions that rumination brought forth today
