Can I really do this #5

[Dtrmned]

Steve,
Thanks.
I am struggling just in the knowledge that this is going to be a very long drawn out process. Not the "I don't know if it is worth it" issue, it is more that I don't know if I have the energy to do this. Even with my GAL parts of my life, the enormity of everything just bears down on me almost every moment of each day. Other than that nugget of knowledge, I am doing good. My weight is down 20 lbs. I'm averaging about 10 miles per day walking and a little running. Lifting a few weights as well. Playing with my S and have had a few instances where my D and I have actually connected a bit. I am confident that if need be, I will be ok after D.
I am also confident that I still love my W and don't want to D
I can't mind read, and I truly don't know how long she can stay in her current state, but I just don't know again, if I have the energy.
My other GAL's have mostly been out of the home a few more hours a week. Reading a little more (this is generally on the weekends and I would be in a separate room. Outside of that, on the weekends I try to get the kids out, if not we play some board or video games, listen to music or just hang out. D is out with a friend for a couple of days. Taking my S to dinner tonight. W is invited, but not pressured. Don't know if she will come yet, but we are going regardless.
Tomorrow just doing some house cleaning and yard work. I usually take a longer walk/run on the weekends as well. Do some reading and then either hang out with my S or if he is with his friends just watch some tv.
The detachment part I am still working on that. I feel stronger with it every day.