Thanks, Nicole. Yes, I need to keep in perspective that this time should be for me, and not him.
Last night I had an online client, and then I stayed up to catch up on a TV show. H was originally hanging out in another room, then started hanging around the kitchen when I started watching the show. Then he sat down on the couch opposite me and started watching too. Asked me a few questions about the plot line. Then eventually he left. He went and sat in the other room again for a long while. At least an hour. At one point I wandered in there just to see if he was still there, and he was.... but he literally wasn't doing anything. Just laying in the dark. Wasn't even looking at his phone. Eventually he went upstairs, without saying goodnight.
He's supposed to go to my IC tomorrow. We'll see how that goes.
He's still sending me job recs. He's trying really hard to help me find a job, which I appreciate. I told him today that I would be getting more clarity on what my schedule looks like for the fall, but that meeting didn't go as planned, so I'm still pretty clueless. He didn't seem keen to talk about the schedule anyway.
I might try to broach the topics of "nights out" again tomorrow. I mainly want to know so I can plan online client sessions. If I get to plan fun nights out, that's cool too, but I mainly want to know what I can do when I'm at home and he's out.
I think that's it for now. I'm going to try to grab a drink with someone tomorrow night. He's going through similar hell too. I think we've been good supports for each other.
