Gordie, I am really happy to hear that you are at a point to where you can hang out with W without the eggshell feeling. That is actually something that I have been thinking about lately...that even now when I see W, it still feels like that. I know that it is normal in that W moved recently and that has caused a decrease in communication, but I really miss just being able to talk to her like a regular person. I am so happy to hear that you are reaching that point. Maybe that will be something possible for me in the future. I feel like, to a small degree, I am following along in your footsteps as you help pave the way for my understanding. I know that you are just living your life in the only way you can, but that in your postings and steadfastness, you are helping me too.
So you went on a family vacation where W wanted to spend time with you and held your hand? Dang! That sounds like quite the turnaround. In my own sitch I realize that things I used to see as positive signs don't seem to affect me anymore. I would notice every little thing and see it as improvement, or not. Now I realize that things are so all over the place that those things don't really matter enough to over analyze. But I also realize that letting of noticing those things might have also caused me to miss things that may or may not be improvements in my W. It probably doesn't matter if I notice them, things will play out like they play out and W either wants to be home and fix things between us or she doesn't, but I can't help but realize I've stopped looking for improvements. I realize that we all probably do that to some degree as we detach and GAL. I am sure you already know this since its your situation, but from an outside perspective I wanted to say that, that trip sounds like a big turnaround for your W. Of course she isn't done yet and theres a long way to go. But like you said, from where you were in January to where you are today is a HUGE difference. Keep on like you are with no expectations and just being the best you that you can be, but wow!
If its too personal or inconsequential then no need to share, but I am curious what happened between you and W that caused her not to speak to you for a day and that you apologized for.
