Hang in there Arsh. This is surely one of the toughest times that you will have to endure, but there is light at the other end of the tunnel.

It sounds like you are doing everything right with the GAL and allowing yourself to break down but in private. Don't change now. Keep up the DBing. Do you really think that he doesn't know that you want him to stay or that his actions are hurting you? If you share your anguish you are doing it to try to control him, to guilt him into staying - that just doesn't work. You are on the best path for yourself and your family. Don't doubt it now.

W 34 Me 42
Married 7 years together 8
0 kids 1 beloved dog
BD 4/6/2018
I moved out 4/7/2018
I moved back in alone 8/05/2018
I file 3/06/2019
D official 5/7/2019