WAS or WHAT 11

[roist]

I said recently that I have continued changing and progressing towards different goals.

I have s small group of guy friends that I do stuff regularly with. Sometimes individually, other times with the group and occasionally with our families. I also have made some new friends through other activities and work. Do my social network is expanding.

I am in the process of changing work/jobs which is a big change. Last year I listed about 10 aspects I would like if I changed job. This one hit all 10. That's awesome! There are other criteria that mean it isn't
perfect but it's pretty close. My main reason to change is to have a decent and especially a regular paycheck every month.

Just back from holidays. We went to my home country and even visited some parts that I have never been to. That was cool. Credit to my W who took care of finding accommodation etc
Some great places.

I still go to meditation group weekly and really enjoy the group there. Signed up again for next year.

About six months ago I thanked my W for all she does for me and kids st home. I listed specific examples.since there has been an increase in those mentioned!!

At this stage I am approaching my fourth year anniversary of this crisis.
During the earlier days I went through some bad times....rreally bad. I have suffered the loss of my W and my M. It easmore painful than the months when my dad was dying of cancer and that was tough. My point being that my grieving for my M is done even if we are still together. I am sure that separating or D would not be smooth sailing nut I am confident I won't fall apart again. For me it is already done. A part from some logistical shitte, I don't fear that. It takes time to get to that place but it is liberating.

Over the last few months I have drafted a letter to W to state I am not interested in living this way much longer.it is more elaborated than that and isn't an ultimatum nor threat. Just stating how it is for me. I may or may not give it to her, but it is almost ready if I decide to go down that road. "Be prepared" as they day in the boy scouts!!


Got to go earn some money. I imagine that I will check in to the forum for the next week or so and then reconcentrate on other stuff. This is no reflection on you guys or this place just me prioritising my time.

Best wishes