Okay today was a tough day but I stood strong. I've noticed all this past week that he was bringing up topics other than our son and I didn't chat about them, only things regarding our son. But today and yesterday he's been a little quieter than usual. I'm trying so hard no to overthink it and worry about myself but part of me wonders about the lack of conversation on my part and if he's possibly mad about it or confused. I know I shouldn't worry but its still hard and I called some friends to talk, not about him, but other topics to distract me.

I feel weak like I should be a pro at DBing but I'm also curious to see his reactions to me taking care of me first and foremost now. Augh, this stuff can mess with your mind.

Together for 13 years, married for 8.
H is 46
I'm 40
S is 6
Bombdrop in April 2018
Still in limbo as of 2019