Yea, its the silence. Ill admit it all day. I dont like it. I dont like feeling like i need to expect some event from her.
Moreover i have been tempted all day to reach out to her.
Ask how potty training is going on her end, send a photo of S3 later when were home.
Its the addiction rearing its head.

i still crave her attention, even if its negative. thats not healthy. I wish i could go to a damn hypnotists and have memories of her erased.....

M: 35, EX-W: 3, S:4
All Divorce Proceedings Complete - Oct 18
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2nd EX - Was Engaged - Diagnosed BPD
2 Major breakups.
2 Rebounds