Hoping this can be saved, but having doubts 3

[reframe]

I did indeed cycle out of it much more quickly this time. But I had a reminder last night that she still has more of a hold on me than she should have.

I pulled back for a few weeks, and last night she initiated another relationship talk.
I took the bait, and felt like I compromised my self respect a bit, asking if she had the energy to work on things when she was clearly indicating that she didn't.

Ironic since I'm not even sure I want her any more.


She is still apparently really good at getting the hooks in. Over the course of the conversation, she was right back to everything being my fault.

It was my fault that we didn't recon a few weeks ago, because I had conditions like her terminating the friendship with OM. Apparently I should have just jumped in.


This is really just more of the same - she always has an excuse why she 'was willing" to work on things, but it's also somehow never a good time.

I am really disappointed in myself for taking the bait, and for allowing the conversation to take a turn toward me pursuing.