My story. Advice needed

[equalzr]

Maybe I should have made it a little clearer. W didnt volunteer info about talking to OM about my family, I found that when i was snooping because I didnt have proof of the full extent of R with OM at the time. She would NEVER tell that to me. She knows better than that. Shes lied to me for almost a year and a half.

That said, if you look back through the thread Im working on my own biz, exercising now(daily), reading DR, working in going back to school for a new degree, and spending lots of time with S. I also told W I wont keep living in what is basically an open marriage, if she wants to file then so be it, but i wont keep doing it. She obviously wasnt happy, but i dont have anyrhing to lose. I cant say i would take her back in a heartbeat anymore. Way too much damage has been done by her. She would have to earn it now. I no longer put that emphasis on myself. I feel completely different about her than even a month ago. More and more I feel xompletely disgusted by her actions as a whole.

Ive probably 180'd a few times because I didnt know what i was doing at first. Im doing for S and myself now, not spending time with W, and creating goals for myself as shown above.