Advice on my Scenario Pt. 21 - Garden in my Bucket

[OrangeK]

honestly, even when doing gal activities it's still pretty frequently on my mind. being busy doesn't really seem to help. I'm not spinning out emotionally today like I was on Monday, but I do not foresee a day where she doesn't cross my mind happening for a really long time if ever. I feel like I have made a lot of strides in realizing that she is toxic and abusive and Reconciliation would be a bad idea for us. I feel like this boards definition of Detachment is potentially unattainable for me. I do not spin out emotionally like I used to as badly or nearly as often, but as far as Detachment goes I don't feel as though I've made much progress at all. to imagine a time where she has absolutely zero impact on my mood and does not invade my thoughts on a regular basis seems like a fantasy to me