My W always dealt the same way with everything, suppressing it and pretending it didn't happen. I always warned her about it, but she never listened.
And then after BD, she started blaming me for everything and bringing up small ridiculous stuff from 5, 10 and 15 years ago. I can't believe she kept track of such ridiculous things and was using them as justification for what she was doing. And at the same time, she totally forgot all the good times and joy she had. Unbelievable but true!
One example she brought up and then even went and told her father about it was that I once unplugged the power cord for the light next to her side of the bed and I didn't put it back. Wow! Really? She remembers that but she doesn't remember all the intimate times, the vacations, the dinners, the Valentine dates, the gifts, the long daily conversations, etc.
I read something about Analysis Paralysis yesterday. I (we) need to stop over-analyzing her behavior because I will never reach any good explanation.
Me:49 XW:41, M:18 years, Kids: S18,S14 BD:JULY 2017, W moved out: DEC 2017 Filed for D: APR 2019, D Final: JULY 2019