Why is it nobody can seem to believe that I want knowledge about how she will act / react for the sole purpose of keeping myself emotionally defended?
Because we've all been there. Because we can see in your stream of consciousness posts that there is still that pull of caring about what she is feeling/thinking. Because true detachment means you don't give a single bit about her feeling of loss, whether she stays with OM or not, etc. And until we truly detach, then we are still attached.
Anyway, again, I knew how'd you answer. I was looking for you to do some self reflection is all. Her thoughts, feelings, emotions, sense of loss, lack of sense of loss has ZERO to do with your emotional state. Unless you let it have an effect.
OK, you're going to be okay because you work hard at it. All we are doing is trying to help you with the journey.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
