Do i miss her sometimes? Yea, i do. Do i wish we were still together and happy? Yes. Do i recognize the massive abuse she put me through? You bet. Would i allow such abuse again? Never Can i recognize that despite missing her, or R is dead and she is an abusive partner, and i deserve better? YES.
Do i have the right to want to know as much as I can to keep myself safe and healing? Yes. I do.
Does that mean that I want her back, that I am obsessed or deliberately denying detachment? No. It doesnt.
M: 35, EX-W: 3, S:4 All Divorce Proceedings Complete - Oct 18 ----------------------------------------------------- 2nd EX - Was Engaged - Diagnosed BPD 2 Major breakups. 2 Rebounds
