maika, yep I get it on not needing to be crazy active all the time and I too definitely want to improve my parenting skills so some of my free time is planning out, thinking about the upcoming time I have with D and what we'll be doing and also sometimes how I might handle better scenarios that came up between us when we were together previously like tantrums, NO!, young children stuff like that.
and yeah...taking care of myself when D is not around, trying to be easy on myself especially when I get to feeling like I was the only one that caused my W to leave...still at a point of self care and preservation for sure.
time...many times I wish I could just fast forward a year...for now on any given day I can swirl from sadness, anger, acceptance, despair, pity, apathy...one day at a time is best I can do and try to get through whatever comes my way internally and externally.
