Hi LoneWlf, yes I guess that's human nature and it's hard to accept that there are things we just can't know. On the other hand, this phenomenon seems to happen often enough, with the same patterns, across the population that you'd think by now there'd be some studies or a more scientific explanations that could help us understand not just what's happening in the moment but what's likely to happen in the future. I think these do exist but still have limited applications because human relationships vary so much. I don't think I could ever be a psychologist. I'd go crazy! I'm glad your faith is helping you to survive this journey. I have doubts about my own faith but I'm still trying to accept there's a greater plan that doesn't take into account what I want or thought I had.
Arsh, I'll soon be working full-time so I need to learn how working moms find time to register at the library and go there alone to search books! There must be a way, but I'll have to figure out what that is. Whenever I take my daughter to the adult section of the library it doesn't last longer than 30 seconds before she gets too noisy. I found that a lot of books are available for a low price on Kindle or you can order a bunch of them used for cheap and just pay for shipping, but again, how do full-time moms find time to read those books!? Especially if there's no father in the picture to help out? I have to start adapting my life! I hope your journey towards being a single mom will go smoothly and you'll also find a way to adapt according to the new routine. That's also good you're rationalizing what's happening to yourself to get through it. Sometimes we have to tell ourselves anything just to survive because otherwise we'd fall apart.
