dropped D off at daycare this morning...tears streaming down my face as I left her. Women don't like men who aren't strong...I'm sorry, I simply can't be strong when giving up half of my chlid's life. If women can't respect/understand that, then I'll live alone the rest of my life.
I believe that I've found more evidence to support there being OM. W not wanting to do anything about trying to work things out, the only possible reason is OM. It's cliche to say as all of us LBS say it, but I must let her go. Need to work on my mind and keep myself from going down memory lane. I am way too weak emotionally to think back into the past. I somehow need to compartmentalize and only allow my mind to think in the present and perhaps peek into the future.
I'm broken on half time with my D. Totally destroyed on that aspect. As for being with W, just haunted by the ghost of who she was. And I failed her, if I had been more of what she needed, even though I didn't know what that was she wouldn't have been tempted/vulnerable to walking away. I have myself to blame for this. I'm sorry all I'm just to work and can barely type this out. Again if women need a strong man, I give up. I'm way too emotional on things like this to be worth a lady taking a shot with me in the future. Bless you all for your support. It means so much to me.
