Life does indeed continue and I realise there is a great deal else I have to be thankful for. Time is a great healer and I live in hope that over time she will realise the damage she has caused her family and the people who love her the most.
Being away makes me realise what great kids I have and also that there is more to life than someone else’s desire to run away from a great marriage. I’m starting to awaken to the fact it’s someone else’s desire for something different than the fact my marriage is failing.
I asked her if she feels she has done everything possible to save her marriage and her reply was “No. I haven’t done anything because it’s not what I want anymore.” I can’t even attempt to compete or understand that mindset and that is one of many baffling and conflicting statements.
I need to live my life as if she is not coming back and that hurts.
