hi all...part of me thinks this might be my last post, even though I see in my last post just above I say I'm never giving up. I guess with almost zero contact with W now I just don't see how hope is possible. the specifics of my day to day life post-W both with and without D aren't bad really, but I do miss her and the love I had for the woman she used to be.
I don't and perhaps never will understand the real reason why W left, why she can't see me/talk to me and why W could not agree to seek help with me to address our issues. W truly just walked away. Is she WW? Perhaps that is why she is unable to do the things I just listed. W has never said sorry, asked how I was, nothing...
I'm sorry I just needed a place to vent this morning. I have read some other sitches where the LBS have had their WW's come back and/or at least make progress in that direction. If I felt there was something terrible in my sitch that I had done, I could understand my W being as she is. Not at all saying I did not have my faults, but nothing insurmountable that we couldn't have worked through.
I'm sad folks. Helpless situation. No reason to doubt W will D and seemingly no chance she will change her mind nor nothing I could say or do. It is very hard when you feel you've disappointed the one you love the most and they walk away. I will always be ready to work on us, but W left and has given me exactly nothing in terms of hope since almost 5 months ago. If/as you go to church today pray for those of us like me.
