I have never in my life dated more than one guy at once. (finding one is hard enough!!). It does feel weird.
Me and BandGuy (He teaches high school band) texted all day yesterday. There was nothing to do at work and he was on the way back from a road trip with his kids and parents and he wasn't driving, so we could chat. He got home, I went home from work, and around 10pm he texted me again, We chatted for 2 hours! He is such a different creature. His parents have been married for 56 years. He saw himself being the same way. He has really strong values and morals. His wife out of no where asked for a divorced and left for her BF who is in her kids lives. He says she is a great mom and the kids love the BF so he is fine with it. He travels a lot which is pretty cool. He did have one long term GF since the divorce. We had great convo. He lives pretty close to me. A super involved and loving father. Adores his kids and would do anything for them.
he's also pretty cute. Tall Italian guy (usually they don't go together, hahaha). I actually messaged him. I am glad he responded. Problem being with kids schedules, my ex has to take D on Tuesday night for her cousins birthday dinner and it is his actual birthday, so we can't get together. I am trying to find a sitter for a few hours Wednesday. My BFF's H might be able to take D10 for a few hours with his kids. Then he goes away on vacay the next day. So, kids schedules are always tough.
HC actually did text me last night. I was shocked. He took a pic of his kids eating dinner at his house and sent it to me. I told him he has the cutest dinner dates and left it at that.
Job, sometimes I am afraid to say what I am looking for in an R. I do know exactly what I want. I am afraid I won't get it though. I want a partner, a friend, someone who is monogamous, not afraid to share feelings, I want someone to ask me how my day was. I have come home alone for so many years and have had no one to share anything with. It's the simple things like that I want. I want someone to not be afraid to be emotionally connected. Eventually someone who loves my daughter.
I think I gave it up so quick because I knew he wasn't looking for these things, so I figured "why not fulfill my needs?" we did have that really strong attraction, so I went with it.
I need to be honest with myself and others about what my goals are and what I want. Even if they go running for the hills. SO be it.
I think I bring a lot to the table aside from dessert. Dessert is a bonus. If me and BandGuy go out and connect. He won't be getting dessert until we date for a while. He seems like the type that is fine with that. He wants more out of a woman.
I am so looking forward to this weekend. Let the good times roll!
