Liars lie... do they ever. They twist things up until their new truth makes them the victim.. unbeleivable. I am raging again. HOW CAN I CUT HIM OFF WHEN THE KIDS WANT HIM IN THEIR LIVES? I am making myself sick over this.
I am at a point of whatever happens, happens. D15 is with him for the week-end.. ex is on a high. His goal is to address her boyfriend. On a high, i know it will be ugly.
I got blasted on text again this week. I was accused of being a cold heartless _______, an idiot, a self centered ----, The one to blame because my standards were too high and would have cause him to have a heart attack.
Of course, i cried, i felt like i was nothing, worthless.
D18 was with me in the car when the texts came in. I was driving her to work. I told her i felt worthless and she says: " how do you think we feel? Constant fighting back and forth now, i don't even want to go in because i don' t know what you' re gonna do? You need help."
I am overwhelm.. i have too much to cope with. A pill will not fix things. Don' t they get it? Yes, i could use help but not from a pill, FROM THEM!!
