Picking up Her MESS #3 and is getting Worse

[marina7]

Kitcat,

Thank you, yes is hard I have done the same thing tv on, radio in d10 room. I am literally a day at a time.

Yes I honestly would not call them if I knew they where in good hands and W would have not just walked out. Kids told there therapist they where scared but happy too, therapist ask what would not make them scared or anxiety they said if we can facetime our mom so therapist said how about your mom calls once a day before bed they where happy so now I only call before bed and I always sound excited and tell them am so happy ya are having fun with a optimistic voice. Is hard but am doing it.

I know am hoping by 6 month they be in a better place where they won't need to hear my voice. I know my kids are not the only kids going through this and they also in a divorce kids group so they know they not alone it [censored] but this is life.

Yes this is what I sob to my therapist I didn't ask to be a part time mom when I decided to adopt I knew I wanted to be a mom forever. I waited 30yrs to be a mom and a wife and W took that away in a second but I know that's the past. Is hard but all I can do is take it a day at a time.