Hongaku, I wish I would have known about all this stuff months ago. I did find a few things a few week after. But I had already done just about everything. The last couple weeks I have been mostly solid. I did ask for a hug the other day that she wasn't to fond of. I wish I wouldn't have done that. My mind set today is to detach and not try to think of ways to contact her. She has been the one to text me. I usually wait a while to respond. I don't want to say I am very excited about doing any of this but realize its really my last resort. The rules are great because they came from a former WW. Everything I have ever read basically says to let her go and work on yourself. I know we still like each other which is nice. Im glad we don't argue or fight. However I am a sales person and thought I could close the deal by talking and convincing and trying to persuade only to be shut down HARD. Patience keeps popping in my head. I appreciate you mentioning that at the end, twice. Thanks for chiming in and showing interest in my sitch. I really think it will work out for me in the end regardless. I want to make sure I do everything right so in the end I look and feel good. I believe if she notices what I am doing I will be a better option based on our history and kids etc. I just want that one opportunity to be the one to decide if I want it or not. Right now I do want it.
ME 47 W 38 M17 T20 Separated 5/20/18 D-bomb 7/9/2018 Nothing Filed 4 kids ages 6, 10, 14, 15
