Can I really do this #5

[Dtrmned]

Thanks for the input everyone.

MrsJLS, I wish my wife would see it that way!

Steve, I am truly wondering if it is for me or the kids. I am not wanting to justify anything through them. I know they are better off in an unbroken home. Can I "outlast" my W's issues to get there? I would love to say I am strong enough but there are days.... I know that I am and that I can, but each day, week, month that passes, we just seem to get further apart. She is more distant. Is this normal? How will she realize how her life could/would be without me if she doesn't? If I provide for my family and life is "easy" not perfect, but easy for her to just "maintain" and plan for her exit, is that a good thing or a bad thing? Would it be better to pull the rug out and let it play out that way?

I DON'T KNOW! I don't think anyone knows. That is the question before all of us. There are tons of scenarios that could or may play out. Is this the right way, the wrong way, or is this the best way? Which path to take? Truthfully,my concern is more on our children than my MR as this will affect them WAY more in their viewpoints on their relationships than it will my W and I as we are adults and can understand much better.

I need to take my family and just lay on a beach for a week! I would love that, dream of that often. Just no problems, issues, etc. no pressure, just relaxation and family time.

This possibility is a total dream at this point and I know that. But a man needs to dream sometimes.

Thank you EVERYONE for your input. I am WAY too NGS and am working on that. DB all the way.

Thanks for being there. Just venting and getting feedback helps more than you can imagine.

JS out.