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[bhappy2]

The following post will be hard to write and it gives me some clarity as to what happened preceeding BD.

S22 comes to me last night while I was writing a response, he says Dad we need to talk, I said ok whats on your mind. He says I am really stressing out at work and I need to find a new job, I cant take the stress anymore. He works in a jail as a CO. He makes good money and has great benefits but feels threatened everyday. I said I will support your decision what ever you chose but first I have to tell you that you cannot quit right now bc of some things that are going on. He may have to get his own appartment.

He then says are you and mom going to fix whats wrong? I said I am not sure but it doesnt look like it. He then asks how can she go on another vaca right now and I said you would have to ask her. I said here is whats happening:

Mom has filed for D and wants to buy me out of the house and she is going to ask you and S21 to pay rent to help pay the mortgage and household expenses. He says he will never pay her rent he would rather she move out if she wants out. Then he asks why should she get anything if she wants to leave, I said thats the law. He then says he needs to tell me something else:

He said I think mom was planning this for a while, she kept complaining about when you would go to work that you never did anything with us. He started to believe it too, and for that he's sorry. I was completely floored!! My emotions were going crazy, he said dad I love you I love what you have done for this family. I almost broke down in front of him, but I held it together and said S22 I love you too. He said Dad can we start doing stuff together again? I said absolutely, he said that he wants to see my parents, he feels really guilty bc everytime there was a chance to go see them mom would say OH you dont have to go. He said that he sees what has gone on here and he is truly sorry for everything.

He gets ready for work and as he is leaving he says I love you Dad.

S21 then gets home and I sit down and explain to him whats happening and he says the same thing as S22, he would rather get his own appartment then pay her rent. He is really upset that she went on another vacation and not helping to pay for anything in the house. I said remember that this is your mom, and whatever is happening between me and her is between me and her. He said he doesnt like what has happened over the last year and its starting to really bother him. He is a police officer and I really do not want him stressed out over this. ugh..............

So with that said I am planning a one night trip to a cabin house just with my boys. We will target shoot drink some beers BBQ. Life will go on.....