I've been doing a lot of house projects. I completely re-orhanized the MBR. It looks great and so cozy. Last weekend I painted the entire first level and got rid of a lot of clutter.
When he came to get S he noticed where holes in the wall we're patched and wanted to know who patched those (I'm guessing he was assuming a guy). It was me, I'm pretty handy.
When he picked up S he asked what I did over the weekend, if I had a lot of guys hitting on me, what I did Friday because he said I was acting secretively about it. He did say that I don't have to tell him. Idk why he even asks then.
When he wanted to ML and I said no, he said he had thought that maybe we shouldn't bc I probably hooked up with someone over the weekend.
All of his behaviors are of, I don't want to be with you but I don't want you to be with anyone else.
In all of this my only hope is that he realizes he wants his family back and realizes the things he did to destroy that. I still am not sure if he is a WH or WAW it MLC. I don't think there is anyone else.
I have done some bad DB things in the past and am working on not doing those. I guess at the end of the day if he was so unhappy with our lives then I should be happy he is away. Truth be told, we we're both unhappy. I wanted him to change and he wanted me to change.
I'm going to continue my GAL. I'm working on detaching and haven't quite figured out what my 180's are. I've always been positive and upbeat. I would actually get yelled at for walking around the house winging bc it was annoying to him (and my children, ha ha). So my 180's would probably be to not care what he is doing maybe... Keeping the house uncluttered and clean... And not wanting to have talks...
