rminer, my arm is sore......from pumping my fist so many times reading this post!! I know there is a lot of emotion involved and I don't blame you one iota for the feelings you are having that having to face the fact that it DID happen. All denial is now gone. And even that is a good thing as now you get to deal with those emotions and that is the only way to get over them.
But this is all good. I hope, I pray, I plead that you get a good MC. This will be an impossible road to hoe without that. I am sorry but most couples are not equipped to deal with these types of things on their own.
I went through emotions just reading that! So I can imagine what it was like for you and her. But most of it was literally pumping my fist. I think that now that you are out of the that pack the true healing, piecing, and R can begin!
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018