JustSad- so sorry for your pain you are experiencing, sounds like you really love your wife and your children. I do wonder if WASs are secretely enjoing pursuits by their LBSs like in your case your youtube video, and maybe somewhere deep inside things like these touch them and make them stop and think of what they are doing. I don't mean pursuing all the time, but when an odd slip happens like you did I don't think you should beat yourself up for that. The fact is that you try and she knows. She is the one who will have to live with the thought that she has destroyed a family, not you.
To me it looks like she doesn't quite want to let you go- by her mixed messages when you were sleeping together.
You sound like a perfect husband btw, I wish mine was 10% as nice
W34 H61 M1 T3 June-H said he wants divorce but hasn't filed. Living and sleeping in the same bed, no intimacy from H side for last 12 months.
