Can I really do this #5

[Dtrmned]

Just lost today...
Steve, I know I screwed up with the reach out and pursuit.

But what are you supposed to do when your heart hurts, your kids are suffering, and the woman you love is just a selfish B? You mentioned yesterday that since all evidence points towards no PA, that my vows to my wife still stand. I agree.

So GAL, 180, etc. etc. put us all in a limbo state that sacrifices our children's immediate needs and keeps us all in a bad situation? Just struggling with this, how to justify it for myself, and how do WE (my entire family) make it through to hopefully the other side?

I have begun to see my W very differently over the last month. I still love her very much. I now, more than ever, see her imperfections as well (which make her almost more endearing). She is not perfect, not flawless (although if you put her in a room with 100 "10's" I would choose her in a second).

Other than the email this morning, which I'm sure gave her both pleasure and pain, I am DB'ing all the time.

Not perfect, just a LBS that is still in love with his W and wants to keep his family together. Unfortunately the odds are against me, but then again, I have always been a risk taker.