Affair, no feelings...is there hope? V

[44tries]

After reading over my own post, I had the revelation that maybe this change has a lot less to do with me than I am giving credit. It's funny how easily I settle into my own perspective that is so different (and likely wrong) from someone like Sandi's who clearly sees the wayward mindset. Perhaps she is having a withdrawal, thinking about OM (or contacting, but I have seen no evidence), or just an influx of waywardness in general. There hasn't been a relapse in disrespectful behavior, thankfully. Just a pullback emotionally, physically, etc. I think she still resents feeling like I don't completely trust her or am subtly monitoring in the background (I'm not really doing anything besides keeping my eyes open). Coupled with feeling a surge of rebellion and no freedom to act, I could see this causing a pullback. There are small incidents that happen where that lack of trust is an elephant. Yesterday or the day before, she was telling me about how she was discussing a work issue with a girl who is associated with OM (they work together and were here at the same time). We were both acutely aware of that underlying awkwardness. At some point, I think the A will have to be discussed and everything in the open.