yep Steve I do hold on to never giving up hope, although with the passage of time and W's actions, I find myself more willing to give myself up to the future and the unknown. as I say for me at least the W's actions/selfishness/etc have been major contributors to my acceptance and moving along. as many vets have pointed out "would you really want to be with that person now?" definitely not.
and yes I mean my gut tells me there is as W's actions would just seem even that more crazy were there not to be. one night stand, ongoing, meh who knows.
GAL wise...now that I have D for a week at a time I spend all of that being fully on best Daddy possible. On the other weeks I'm in the gym each morning, work, go out for dinner, trying to read some books I've wanted to (although I end up falling asleep much too soon!) and then I spend weekends with some of my family and close friends doing whatever or nothing at all. It's not perhaps the most glamorous or adventurous, but I'm in great shape, value the time with those who love me and I've been sleeping great throughout. Still considering some trips by myself and with football season not too far around the corner looking forward to making some games and tailgating.
