Meredith, Just wanted to say out here that I appreciate your honesty. I know how hard this is. And yes, it does suck. That, my friend, is "what it is." A very sucky situation! I know how hard you have worked on yourself. What a far way you have come! And a lot earlier in age than I was able to do it. Yeah, this is detachment. I have always thought that there is a huge difference between true detachment and what others think detachment is. That is to say, detachment is totally removing yourself from the drama and emotions. It is not ignoring your spouse as an attention getting tactic. You know...look at me! I'm detached from you! True detachment is hard because you are not keeping one eye open, looking for some sign that it is "working." There is no real incentive to keep you moving along. That is a departure from the days of looking for "baby steps," isn't it? I think you will be able to understand this muddled post.
What I am trying to say is, I'm here for you. Oh, and I noticed that I have a shopping trip planned for me! O.K!!! I need more Yankee candles. More than that though, I need your wonderful company!
