I do want to clarify again that I do not want an IMMEDIATE boyfriend and commitment. It does not work that way. I just want to do date someone with POTENTIAL to be a boyfriend and a partner.
It's in my head that he already said he is no where near having a relationship. Which makes me feel like a very long time. And usually, it never happens with the rebound.
I had mentioned the first guy I had feelings for after my D. He wasn't ready, but we continued on in sort of the same sitch. On and off for years. And it just hurt. I wasn't the one even when he was ready, but I was just good enough for FWB. I DO NOT want to be in that place again. I don't want to get feelings for somewhere knowing it isn't going to go anywhere.
I don't want to break things off hoping he would come back. I tried it once and it didn't work (with someone else). When I break things off, I know the risk is ending things completely, so I only do it if I am ready for that. But I don't know I want to do that yet here.
I am still in a self-inflicted personal limbo. But I would still accept a date from someone else if I was asked. I am not committed. No one is asking, hahaha. I haven't gotten the mental energy yet to go back online since hatchet man.
I am going to relax and have fun tonight. I think we will enjoy dinner, a little wine, and some conversation I wouldn't otherwise have on a Wednesday night.
Still in Limbo on the house. The sellers haven't decided. They don't want to drop because they will lose money. However, they split a year after buying the house and not losing money is unrealistic as their agent realizes, so their agent is trying to convince them to take the offer because the longer they wait, more expense incurred. Nothing new or not in flood zone on the market.
