OK here goes first post... pt 2

[jaylove]

My W filed the papers last week David and I’m feeling so raw, still waking up between 3-4am and surviving on 4-5 hours sleep for the past month.
Like you, I just can’t understand W’s thinking - she is taking our two sons away for two weeks on Friday, on a holiday that I was also booked to go on (we only booked it three months ago, and here we are in this sitch)
We made plans to take the kids out this afternoon for a day out and to show that we can still be together and be civil, she suggested going somewhere near water, so I found a lovely spot in Surrey. She just messaged to say that she couldn’t see the point in going now, the kids are really disappointed and I’m left thinking that she must be being coached by a friend to totally detach from me to help firm up her reaolve to see this through.

We both seem to be in very similar positions, though I’ve already had the papers sent through.

I’m starting to see that db is about working on myself to make me a better Dad and person and if it brings my W back, then that will be a bonus.

Stay strong and I’ll try to help chipping in to your thread