While we were at the bonfire party WAW did some things I forgot to mention... She kept playing with my ponytail. My hair has gotten much, much longer since she left...I used to have short hair and did my whole life but now it's long and in a ponytail. So she was teasing me about it and playing with it. She also kept...I guess some would call it "fussing"...over me. For example she would come over and pick something off my shirt. She had commented how she liked the shirt before we left but I forgot to include that then she said "It's white though. That means you're going to stain it with something before the end of the night!" I can't deny I tend to spill things or otherwise somehow stain my white shirts so she commented on that. Well later when she was "fussing" over me she saw a small piece of a cigarette ash stuck on me. Well instead of blowing on it which is what you're supposed to do...she rubbed it and made a tiny stain!!! So I joked back with her that I'm not taking responsibility for that stain at the end of the night. She also rubbed my back when I was coughing at one point too.
She also has been writing a book about her self esteem issues, her part in the failure of our marriage, the issues in our marriage, etc. She said she changed all the names but that she has started a new chapter. It's about being friends with the ex or not. When she told me about this she said that I'm probably not going to like parts of the book but that I turn out to redeem myself in this lastest chapter. I replied jokingly with "Oh that's so great to hear. I'll finally be able to sleep tonight." She laughed and said "Yeah you redeemed yourself."
So all this partnered with the kiss seems to be the start of more physical contact from her. She also said "Sorry, it's s habit" A LOT when she would do these little "married" things during the day.
Sorry I forgot to add this stuff before...it's hard to recount several hours with her in a few paragraphs without forgetting things. I'll keep you all posted with any new developments. No contact with her since she got home that night. Her wheels are turning since Saturday I think. She really had a ton of fun with me...and I suspect she may have had TOO good of a time and it's thrown her for a loop!
I'm also pretty sure now, looking back a few days later, that that kiss was totally intentional on her part. There was no reason for it as our lips haven't touched in over 4 years now. She, for whatever reason, wanted that kiss. What she's doing with it now is anyone's guess. We'll see what happens next...
ME: 43 W:44 M 13 years on 5-5-01 T 18 years BD 4/27/14 D papers served 5/5/14 (how appropriate a date) WAW moved out 5/12/14 Papers filed 6/27/14 Divorce granted 07/17/14 Our marriage ends 11/17/14
