The magic secret/magic pill is right in front of you. Look yourself in The mirror and you will discover the secret. Trust me, you will get tired and fed up of all the pain and agony. And once you are truly done and tired of the disrespect, you start moving forward with your life.
So the answer you are looking for is locked inside yourself. I know cliche, but it's the truth. We as LBS holed ourselves back.
Stop putting all your energy into worrying about your WW and put your energy into healing yourself. The moment you start loving yourself more than worrying about your WW, is the moment the world will seem so much vibrant. I know you might be thinking that's easy to say, its just so hard right now. Take it one day at a time. Smile and speak to as many people as possible.
I make my post short, because, I'm a person who recieves advice and tries to use it all at once. What worked for me was focusing on the positive. I read the fable about feeding the good wolf and that spoke directly to my soul. I have days still now where I'm down, but I just continue to smile and love life.
Living in love is hard and amazing. Living in destruction is impossible. Get out of the destruction and start to reconstruct. Your old M is dead no matter what happens between you and your W. So let it die and you start to grow. Let her go!!! I'm telling you that from my own experience. If you have to say the words out loud to yourself. " I'm letting you go". Scream it multiple times and then move forward. And don't be too hard on yourself, this is a learning period in your life, just like any other.
Love and live on. You got this Chris.
M:37 W:37 T:11 M:10 S17, S13, S10, S4 BD:06/28/17 OM confirmed 07/20/17 Recon the M 10/29/17 Working hard:2gether
Onward and forward
This process is not a sprint it's a marathon! Patience, Patience, Patience.