Rough day, first week since I don't have any kids, they are with W this week for 7days. And then next week with me for 7 days till school starts. I today woke up sad,angry so many emotions. I question Why do I lose time with my kids W wanted this not me.
First 9yrs away from any kids this is hurting so bad. I simply don't get it,and never will. I spoke with kids yesterday but you can tell W is right next to them they can't be themselves it breaks my heart to a thousand pieces . I keep telling myself one day at a time.
Sunday at drop off W had her hand wrap up like she cut herself or even might have punched the wall who knows. I was updating W in kids yearly follow up out of nowhere W says OW is not going anywhere I replied Ok. And W repeated herself to me.I said Ok I understand. I get in the car and was shock I ask myself did she hear anything I said of the kids and some concerns with s10 he faints when playing we scheduling MRI and checking heart. Wow W just cared that OW isn't going anywhere.
Somedays am optimistic that W will snap put of this somedays like today I feel W is to far gone that rabbit hole.
At BD Lesbian marriage Me39,W36 S9,D9,S8 adopted all three Together almost 10yrs Bomb Drop - April 2017 W movedout - May,2017 OW June,2017 Currently 2018 Me40, W38 S10,D10,S9
