mtb...yep for sure. wasn't taking all the blame for it at all. simply taking ownership of and acceptance for my part in the MR. it is important for me to be cognizant to the reality that perhaps I did not fufill my vows to the degree that W needed. just think it's important as frequently looking into myself that I try and understand best I can my W's point of view and feelings.
OK, honestly don't think my self-confidence, esteem has taken much of a hit...at least I don't "feel" that they have. I have heard some crazy things from my W about what I did/didn't do to be sure. As I said to mtb I for sure try to see W's point of view as much as I can. If W moves on to another man, sure that will hurt, but that will also be the nail in the coffin so to speak. Again her choices. I know I'm a good man if imperfect, know I have areas to improve myself in, but if her decisions take her away from me, what more can I do but continue forward? Could I be on here a hot mess tomorrow, yep, but also again maybe not...each day that passes I'm one day further down the road to whatever lies ahead in my life. that's all I keep in my sights these days. waves of life might rock me left and right...I'll just do my best to stay seated in the center of the boat.
