Can we encourage you to start with baby steps? As I see it, you have so much potential of having a long, full and beautiful life. None of this needs to be hinged on anything to do with your WAH. It is all inside of you. How can we help you slowly shift your focus to creating a more beautiful life for you and D? I am referring to a life where whatever your WAH does/says or doesn't do/say no longer affects you, no longer affects your mood, your day/week, and how you live.
You see, even tho he has been checked out for so long, you (and only you) continue to give him complete control. It only takes a visit, a call, a conversation, or anything having to do with HIM, and it completely dictates how you feel and react. This is an extremely unhealthy level of codependency and as I see it, the reason you remain stuck.
Whether he is falling flat and comes running back or out shagging another young hotty in Dubai, does not have to control your life. You, and your D, deserve a life of love and happiness. That, my dear, starts within you. You have got to choose that you are happy and will be okay regardless of what he does. You have to believe this. How can you start taking baby steps so you can detach??? That is step one.
Blu
“Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon.” – Nelson Mandela
