Dear Lord, I offer you this prayer, to help me with my current relationship situation. Please take away all the pain and hurt in my heart. Fill it with love, joy, patience, and understanding. Bless me and my partner, so that we may never surrender to whatever challenges that come our way. Fill our hearts with love for each other, and may you make each one of us realize each other's worth. Please touch the heart of my partner, fill it with much love for me. Make our complicated relationship become uncomplicated. I seek for your mercy and blessing that you may allow us to spend the rest of our lives with each other. Please make this feeling mutual for both of us. Lead us not into temptations. Guide us wherever we go. Always put us in each other's heart and mind. Thank you Lord for hearing my prayer. I love you. Amen.
Last edited by LoneWlf; 07/21/1801:51 AM.
M51 w50 T-20Yrs M-16Yrs S15- mad at W for not trying and giving up 1 Awesum dog BD 10/31/17 separate rooms 02/08/18 wife moved out 05/17/18
LW but only suggestion is to always end your prayer with a "never the less, your will nor mine be done. please give me the strength to face that no matter what it is. "
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
Arshi - DavideUK and S85 thank you for your input.- Daily prayer-"His will be done !"
On a funny note- I went for a 3 hour ride thru the hills today with a buddy of mine. He is a much more experienced rider than me. While racing to the top of one hill- He reached there first and he yelled down to me -What's wrong? I responded by saying -I'm in alot of pain this ain't easy ! ( not just thinking of my physical state but also my sitch here). His response was hilarious- He said -Pain is like an erection - both are only TEMPORARY !!! HaHaHa... I made it top the top in full laughter. Hope it made you smile like it did me. Blessings!
M51 w50 T-20Yrs M-16Yrs S15- mad at W for not trying and giving up 1 Awesum dog BD 10/31/17 separate rooms 02/08/18 wife moved out 05/17/18
It has been a couple days since I have posted. I have been doing the same routine now still going to the gym in the morning, walking my dog and then job hunting then spending time with S and making dinner then often I go for a bike ride at night unless I coach a baseball game or a practice- each once a week. I also pray often. My S team played a heck of a game last night. They were down 4-1 on the last inning and the scored 5 runs in the top and gave up 1 in the bottom. S was at the top of the line up and went 4/5. My S has agreed to babysit the month of August - his 2 cousins aged 10 and 7 for my brother and wife about an hour away. This means he will be staying with them for the week and returning on weekends. He will continue to play his baseball games here once a week. He will start this Monday. I am happy for him because he will be able to spend time with his cousins(2 other cousins about his same age also live near by) -so they will all be able to hang out. He really likes doing this. I will definitely miss him. On the job front - I have another interview today with a agency regarding a position. I connected with the owner of the start up company and he said that he will be getting a job offer together in the near future. I'm still not surea bout this but will take it and continue to look for better opportunities if I find it to be not what i'm looking for. I am also thinking volunteering by getting my dog to become a certified therapy dog. He is very gentle and loves people but can also do about 20 different commands along with a bunch of tricks. He was originally bought to help my S with his anxiety but he has been a Godsend in helping me thru this most difficult time. He spend most of his time shadowing me. Even at the dog park with 20 plus dogs he hangs around me and the other owners. I am still cycling between good and bad days. I often times feel exhausted. This by far is the hardest thing I have ever done. Still no contact with W. This week she had a letter of sorts delivered here.-not sure if I should call or text a simple message to let her know. I just want to limit my contact with her. should I have her come here to pick it up or just forward it? She still texts S almost daily. I also had a couple dreams about W in 2 of them we were together as a loving couple. Not sure what this means but I know my focus needs to be on just me. I don't post much now because not much changes - I come here to read but find many heartbroken people in a miserable situations . Makes me feel for them and also kinda emphasizes the crap that I have been thru and still am in. In sitches like these I just need to cling onto God and his infinite mercy and know that he has something great in store for me and my S. As written in Jeremiah 29:11- For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Wishing everyone God's love and peace!
M51 w50 T-20Yrs M-16Yrs S15- mad at W for not trying and giving up 1 Awesum dog BD 10/31/17 separate rooms 02/08/18 wife moved out 05/17/18
Idk LW, its been a while now and it seems to me that no contact isnt getting you any closer to your goal, perhaps its time to try something new. I think you sh try reopening the lines of communication ever so SLIGHTLY. So, along those lines, Id initiate contact about the letter. On another note, Id also be sending her updates and pics of sons games etc. to keep her updated on the basics of his life, just out of love you have for each of them and I also happen to think its good coparenting in general. I know everyones gonna jump here and disagree, thats ok. This is my opinion nonetheless and i realize its different than the common view here on the boards, just thought id share with you what I though as I read your last post.
M: 43, H: 44 Married 18 yrs, Together 26 yrs S17, D15, D8, S6 Still living in MH
LW I actually agree with Helena, it’s kind of a temp check from your side to see how she reciprocates. You have given her tough love for so long may be tone down a bit just for once and see how it goes and readjust based on her response. Well, you know my sitch, I am not seeing any results at all so maybe not the best person to advice but wanted to see what the vets think - arshi
LoneWlf, I know the feeling of not much changing. It sounds like you're progressing in other parts of your life though. There's no better time to rely on your faith than now. We weren't put on this planet to live happy perfect lives. That doesn't mean we enjoy suffering but it can serve as a means to strengthen our faith for those who seek a religious path. If I were you I'd inform your wife about the letter so she can pick it up if she likes.
