What should I be doing now? (It's done)

[Coconut]

I did not mean to imply that my son and I aren't close, I speak to him pretty regularly, I've flown him up here 3 times in the year and 5 months I've been here and I've gone down to visit him in FL about 10 times. We are close, when he was up here for July 4th, he told me that he feels closer to me and my side of the family than anyone else, so our R is not what I was upset about.

What I meant was I didn't get to go to all of his wrestling meets in his senior year (I went to 3 but missed districts and regionals), I didn't get to see him dressed up in his tux heading to prom, I lost a year and a half of saying good morning and good night in person, you know, cheesy stuff like that. My family gets together often and when I see the pics on facebook he is often present, it's those types of moments that I was feeling angry at having missed. Yes I realize that I chose to move away, so you don't need to remind me of that, but honestly in the overall picture it was the best thing I could have done with the situation that I was put in.

These feelings are rare, I really haven't felt down about anything regarding my D in a LONG time, but it hit me the other day. But hey, one bad day in at least 6 months isn't bad